I will recover, even without a baseline state to recover. Being born with neurological disability and experiencing early childhood trauma means there’s no ‘getting back to the old me’, I’ve had to become what I need and want to be. The future didn’t become a thing I could process until I was twenty two. Since … Continue reading Fighting Tooth and Nail
Tag: childhood trauma
Liminal Power
Gradients, things that are not one nor the other, both and neither, points of contact and crossing, these are liminality. Many people are drawn to ambiguity. In anthropology, liminality applies to the state of being in between stages of life or rites of passage, but the word has crossed into a wider sense of ‘in … Continue reading Liminal Power
Socratic Method: Coping with Negative Self-Talk
Background chatter pervades our thought processes and for many of us, a prominent voice is one of self deprecatory slander. We’re hardwired by our critical environments to regularly shame ourselves. Any pressure, abuse, or bullying will have installed patterns of self perception that warp into shadows of these traumas, continuing to punish you. “You’re not … Continue reading Socratic Method: Coping with Negative Self-Talk
Codependency, Trauma, and Mental Illness
Interpersonal relationships are to be a source of self improvement practices, they ought to leave you feeling fulfilled, well rounded, and secure. These bonds need to be made sustainable if they should endure healthily for many years or a lifetime. Anyone will struggle with balancing relationships but people coping with mental illness or trauma can … Continue reading Codependency, Trauma, and Mental Illness
Hypercritical
I’ve always considered myself a very open minded person, but the truth is that I have hypercritical tendencies. Having opinions is important but I can be opinionated in excess— especially around social, spiritual, religious, cultural, economic, and political topics. While I only climb up on my soapbox in private about random people who have no … Continue reading Hypercritical
Common Cognitive Distortions
Everyone experiences problematic thinking, it’s part of being human. Our job is to just be aware of how our train of thought may warp to create negative mindsets which distort how we perceive reality. We may develop automatic reactions, instinctive tendencies toward problematic thoughts without realizing. It’s incredibly easy not to notice we’re falling into … Continue reading Common Cognitive Distortions
Digging Deeper
I want to know myself. You likely want to know yourself too. Why is it so difficult sometimes to reach into the true depth of our being, why do certain truths hide so desperately from us? We delude ourselves into believing we know what we know and the rest we must search for. My internal … Continue reading Digging Deeper
Alchemy of Self: Dissolution Part 1
Our emotions tie our consciousness to our unconscious, much like our dreams. These feelings can teach you about yourself or take you under their control. In esotericism water is symbolic of our emotions and dissolution is a process of dissolving a substance into a liquid. We take the ashes of our burnt away insecurities and … Continue reading Alchemy of Self: Dissolution Part 1
Alchemy of Self: Calcination Part 1
We all have our reasons for desiring self improvement, we want to be better, but there’s something to acknowledge first. We don’t improve, we reveal. ‘Wants’ are unnecessary. Already, we’re equipped with greatness, there’s nothing to want that isn’t already a part of you. Our process now is to identify and destroy the things that … Continue reading Alchemy of Self: Calcination Part 1
Trauma, Souls, Nightmares of the Dreamscape
They’re a reality of trauma— my dreams have uninhibited access to all of my suffering and a mind doesn’t naturally utilize coping skills in the realm of sleep. Any memory I’ve avoided recalling in my waking life, and even those I’ve worked hard to accept and release in therapy, is replayed either verbatim or as … Continue reading Trauma, Souls, Nightmares of the Dreamscape
Sustaining Practice 