Some would say the topics I write about are at times too personal, that I shouldn’t expose so much. All is interconnected— it’s time to heal the world’s relationship with talking about trauma and mental illness. My part in this is tiny and insignificant, but it’s mine. Being proactive in advocacy of destigmatization as a … Continue reading Honour in Uncomfortable Topics
Nothing I write has been appealing to me, even grateful as I am that I can finally move my dominant hand properly after spraining all three joints of my forefinger. It’s been a month and my mental health has been poorer than usual, but life is getting hectic and isn’t going to wait for me … Continue reading Is What It Is
For a warm moment the pressure lifts. I’m learning to allow myself the full experience of happiness, without giving all my attention away to intrusive thoughts. They’ve been heard out, accepted as part of my reality, and now it’s time to let go. I’m at peace watching birds out my window. Joy will come regularly … Continue reading Jaybird Joy
Pride is nearly a stranger to me and I know shame intimately. Science, art, and philosophy provide me structure for courage. Through courage, I might get to know pride. Shame still clings and attempts to interfere with my healing and growing and knowing of what I’m capable of. Shame carries embarrassment, self hatred, and hates … Continue reading An Alchemist’s Shame
We’ve all known catastrophe. The apocalypse exists within Caput Corvi, the symbol of a decapitated crow. Our internal reasoning cannot keep up with the crises of our circumstances. The crow forces us to change so that we may learn to begin doing so willingly. Patterns repeat, break, transform. Life is a series of cycles, some … Continue reading Psychological Healing: Experiences with the Alchemical Crow
Ornate thought compliments many topics but some states of mind are more conductive than others in the realm of self improvement. I’m prone to lengthy in-depth rumination which ultimately brings me no conclusion. My opinions bear several definitions of productivity but above all else, I’m found asking myself, “Is this necessary? Does this sustain me? … Continue reading Sacred Simplicity
Uncountable, unfathomable, unimaginable, insurmountable, I cannot inventory this lifespan. Seated in glory, never damn the molted skins sloughed, succeeded—
I haven’t written anything but lists and two brief personal reflections since November 30th due to burnout from completing NaNoWriMo, and taking the month to exist and absorb has caused me to realize the overexertion I’ve been putting my mind and body through. Farm work and art work reconcile almost too easily, they’re collaborative, both … Continue reading Resting Times
Our increments of time hedge philosophy. We witness credible evidence of effect but the measurement of our experience is an instrument, the mechanical clock and internal clock alike. My birthday is a few weeks before the Gregorian calendar’s New Years Day, so my gauge of a year's time is fairly traditional though I’m motivated by … Continue reading Measuring Time Against Action
My restraining order against her has been expired for years and I don’t need another one, yet she still haunts my life and fosters discouragement within me. How to rebuke discouragement? Are we driven by praise? Pride? Regret? Why keep trying? What is discouragement? Perhaps a mild paranoia, a sense of shame, embarrassment— cures are … Continue reading Encouraged (Isolation)
Sustaining Practice 