Two halves of a whole, the inside and outside. We desire and require a stable relationship with both. There is an outside and an inside and the outside is on the inside and the inside in the outside, and they are both eternally separate and intertwined. Sometimes the balance becomes uneven and we isolate ourselves, … Continue reading Reading and Listening (Exposing Yourself to the Outside)
After trauma, betrayal, abandonment, sometimes being told you’re good at coping can be debilitating. There is no right way to respond to trauma. There are healthy and unhealthy ways of coping, but assigning ‘good’ to one thing implies the opposite is ‘bad’, often without knowing if that one way was actually healthy to begin with. … Continue reading Why “You’re Handling This Well” Can Be Damaging to Say
Being individuals means difficulties in interacting. Within our tentative social bonds we struggle to find balance in withholding and projecting, both protecting ourselves and assuming ourselves within others. The Cosmic Horror of Social Interaction is an existential game of defensiveness. Am I being misjudged? Am I misjudging someone else? There are rules we don’t know … Continue reading Learning Empathy: Acknowledging Projection
Being in love means knowing things you shouldn’t. Your gut instinct ties you to truth. The good and the bad, love makes a soul knowing. Many pathways branch from choices and often you can see them all. It's not love that blinds you. Conditioning and codependency blind you. A lack of self respect blinds you. … Continue reading In Love
Anger is raw. I feel it in my core. I’ve been made to feel worthless once more— betrayed, disrespected, I’m the doormat walked all over. I feel shit smeared across as they scrape mud and gunk off their shoes onto my soul. Uncared for and taken advantage of, the world thinks it can get away … Continue reading Forgiveness: A Current Time Which Will One Day Be a Memory, What Kind?
It's difficult for me to own my past. To accept and hold it within me, let alone release it to others, is a brutal living. Putting words to experiences feels an unneeded reminder, but it is. Reliving my life on my own terms is an act of power I must fight for. Others have taken … Continue reading To Be Open and Vulnerable
I appreciate the warm joy of your laughter, earthy and chortled. I’m laying in a grassy meadow warmed by the sun. There are many things I love about your happiness. Beautiful, and when your face relaxes, your toothy smile is bright and reflective of your inner child reached by glee. Comfortable, impressionable, expressional— I appreciate … Continue reading What I Love About Your Feelings
Valuing comfort has been pivotal to learning to care for myself. I grew accustomed to pain and instability, not letting myself bother making strides to feel better. Not having trust in my environment or myself continued to bore a hole in my soul and I was willfully oblivious. Coming to terms with the things I … Continue reading Reflection on Comfort